Thursday, June 26, 2008

On my mind...

What to wear to the Anesthesia Banquet tonight?  None of my "church dresses" really look like "cocktail dresses"

There is something about toddlers in underwear that is hilariously cute!  No, Alex isn't potty-trained yet.  But we did receive a package from my mom with some cute little undies for her and she insisted on putting them on.  SO FUNNY to see her running around in'em.  She threw a major fit when I tried to put a diaper back on her but finally acquiesced when I let her carry the undies around in her hand the rest of the day.  She also insists that they are "undies" and not panties - gotta be like big brother.  (I've only recently convinced her that she doesn't have a penis).

It is possible to feel lonely, even when surrounded by other people.  Everyone we've met has been so friendly and kind and welcoming.  The other moms have invited us to their houses, to the park, to the pool.  But it's still hard to be the "new" person.  It takes time to get to know people well and to build deep, strong friendships.  I know that - I need to be patient.  But it's still hard.

WOW.  We are in a WHOLE LOT of DEBT.  I already knew this - but it's just now sinking in.  When we were med students I didn't dwell on it too much- I mean what else could we do?  We needed the loans to pay for school and to survive, that's just how you do it.  But now that we're about to get our first paycheck (which, by the way, is VERY exciting) I'm looking at the size of the paycheck...and I'm looking at the size of the loans...and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed.

Oh, so this is why kids start going to school when they're 5!?!  Noah's not 5 yet, he'll do another year of preschool (which he's so excited about).  But I didn't realize how much work it was going to be to keep him entertained all summer long.  It's not unusual for us to do several outings a day now - not usually my style but if I don't he'll drive me insane!  It's been good for us though.  We're having a lot of fun together and it's forced me to get out of the house, interact, and pay more attention to my kids (as opposed to the laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning, emailing, blogging, phone calls, bills, etc.) 

It's amazing what you can get used to (i.e. bathing everyday because you're shower hasn't worked since you moved in).  It's a long story that I don't feel like telling, but that's what we're doing.  Don't get me wrong, I complain about it (way too much, I'm sure) but it's almost become the norm.  I went to get in the bath yesterday morning and didn't even think twice about it....until it was time to wash my hair of course : )

Why don't I have anything to blog about?  We're busy, we're happy - a little stressed and overwhelmed and still adjusting to all the changes - but overall we're happy.  Yet, for some reason I'm having a really hard time coming up with anything to say.  Hence, this post with nothing funny, creative, or interesting about it...just what's going thru my head at the moment.  Hope you don't mind : )

 




12 comments:

montanawildflower said...

Summer, I miss you SSOOOO much! Just have fun at the banquet tonight and I promise you that nobody will remember what you were wearing. You always look so cute and classy. And about the loans...just remember that when you actually get to the point of having to pay back the loans, his paycheck will be 10x as much. :) Love you!

Jeppson said...

Summer you are a little bit of fabulous! No worries. . .you'll adjust, but i know its hard. When we moved here I thought i'll never make friends like i had in St. Louis, but of course I have and in some ways better friends. It is so hard being somewhere new, jut give it 6 months! Love and MISS YOU!

JoAnna said...

I totally agree on the toddlers in undies thing. I think it's SO cute!
I also went through the same thing with the loneliness in spite of all the great people thing when we first moved here. We need to come up with a reason to talk EVERY day!!

Jess said...

Hi Summer! I was blog jumping today and found your blog on Jen's. I read your post and I have to say that I was a little relieved that I am not the only one who feels a little bit lonely...even in a room of the nicest people. Hope you guys are doing well!! Good luck with the wall paper!

Kristin said...

It's so hard moving somewhere new, but will be so good in no time. Every time we have moved, I've made friends for life, friends that I can call every three months (or longer) and it feels like I talked to them just yesterday. It will get better I promise.

I hear ya about keeping little boys busy, I swear it is a full tiem job. Once he get a little older and can play city sports it is wonderful because he and his younger siblings will be so tired out from playing during "pratice," that they all pass out as soon as their heads hit the pillows.

Man that sucks with the tub, I hate baths more than anything, but at least you are clean.

Oh and have you hear about deferment for the loans, you can put off paying them until after residency, they still collect interest, but once we are done the payment won't be that bad right.

Elise said...

Summer, you sound so busy! I'm sorry you've got the "new person" blues. I think I still get that every once in a while and I've been here for 3 years!
I still think Rochester sounds like the perfect place to live, parks on every corner! Hope you had fun at the banquet! Good luck settling in, everyone there is lucky to have you guys around because your family is fabulous!

Randy and Tiffany said...

I enjoy reading your posts, even when it is just all about what you are thinking :) I'm getting a little nervous to move next year too because of not knowing anyone and having to make new friends...I am not good at that...
So which "cocktail dress" did you end up wearing to the banquet?

Faye said...

So glad to hear the kids liked their new undies. I can't wait to see them in them. There is something so adorable about kids running around in their underwear.

sara said...

Man, I HATE that being new feeling. It takes so long for me to adjust. I'm sure you'll do great.

Sure miss you. I'm also missing preschool. I am having the same exact feelings about my boys right about now. Driving me crazy!!

Sarah said...

So, I think I could write you a novel on every point that you posted about :) I will try and spare you though I can't guarantee anything, you know me! :) I am sure that you looked absolutely gorgeous at the banquet as usual, and Alex and her undies is too cute. I love your kids. And my heart so understands your heart about feeling lonely around all nice people. Even living here and not moving I feel lonely all the time since everyone I've gotten really close with moves. It is really hard on your heart making and losing (not totally losing, but losing the proximity) friends all the time. It always gets better with time, but that never makes it easy when it's happening. If that even makes sense. I know you will have wonderful, close friends so soon... but I know it's still so hard. Love you!!

Carrie Anne said...

My thoughts exactly on SO MANY points. And you are never boring in your posts, by the way! I'm glad you are busy, though. I hear you on missing the old friends & waiting to meet new great friends...the adjustment is tricky and bittersweet, but I loved my Cleveland experience SO MUCH because of the friends there. Book club, cooking club...so many fun people who are super cool! I know it's so hard to keep those little people busy! Rebecca has been driving me nuts, and we can't go to the pool because i'm not to my 6 weeks yet! UGH! Even still, how am I going to do that with a newborn? Let's just say she's been doing quite a bit of computer...oh well.:)
You are so cool! Keep having fun, and I'm sure you were a hottie at the banquet...what a great excuse to buy something cute from JCrew! They always have super cute dresses! I hope it went well.:) Have a great weekend!
PS-The guy who did my epidural this time around went to Mayo Clinic, and it was THE BEST I've ever had, and I let him know over and over, because it wasn't painful or uncomfortable! Okay, that was random.:)

Autumn said...

Summer, moving is so hard and trust me I know about feeling alone even when surrounded by people. Also, the loan thing (paying them I mean) does get easier. I have a rule--it takes about 6 months (I'm kind of slow though--it might not take you as long) to get into the groove of major life changes and you've had a lot lately. Good luck--I'm sending you positive vibes from Germany.